Tentative aka "Breezy" people in the Cell phone age Era

I must say.. people have gotten less enthusiastic about "invites" these days. Not saying I'm not one of them. I admit it.. I've been prone to be " breezy" as they say. And I must admit, I'm tired of it.
People in this day and age always reply.." tentative" to anything you invite them too. As to say... " well if something better with other people that I enjoy more have something going on, I may not make it". Ugghh.. it's rude and it's gross. If you want to go, then go. If you can't go, then say, sorry already have plans, or can't go. If you are iffy, then just say.. NO THANKS, sorry. It's not that hard people. And the ones that wait for their "partners" response.. when THEY were not the ones invited in the first place... gag.

This aggravation comes out to play due to me having my 30th birthday party this weekend. Yes, I'm turning 30 and feel like I just barely got my sh*t together. Anyhow.... the party invite.. I mean... don't give me excuses on why you can't go.. or then later explain... oh sorry i just got this email.. i mean.. people cannot commit to one thing anymore. It annoys the living you know what out of me. When I'm invited to things now, I reply instantly.. check the calendar, check with my mate if he "would like to join", and then give my response. Now, if at a later date something else comes up, I have to say to the other person, " I'm sorry, but I have already committed to another invite". People understand this. It's not that hard.

But with today's technology, people feel that they can be "tentative" to all things, and then just " call, or text" the party thrower at the time of the party and see "how the party is going", and then say... " oh ok, I'll be there shortly". Three hours later they may show.

I guess when you live in an area where you have not grown up with the friends that you have made, they don't feel as obligated, or find it THAT necessary to join your festivities. This is what makes people so irritating to me. Just because I have not known you since high school, should not determine how much of a "friend" I am to you.

I love making new friends, I use to be fabulous at it. But with age comes wisdom, and well, hardship. After so many failed relationships, and "bad" friends, and what have you.. you start to become hard, and not want to let people in. This is new to me, and I'm finding it very evil. You become more blunt, more honest, and more annoyed with it. Because not everyone handles friendships the same way.

I guess what I'm trying to say, is choose wisely. Party's and People. That way.. you're sure to never miss a good party. And treat all friendships as if they are equal. And parties for that matter.

When do dreams become realistic?

Everyone has them.. the dream. Not while sleeping.. the ones while living. I can honestly say.. I have no idea WTF I am doing with my life sometimes. I work, but i'm not happy working. I get so frustrated with the people that have everything figured out. I'm about to go into my 3rd decade of life, and I feel that I should have something a bit more mapped out for myself.

When I was 18 I went to college.. thought I was going to do something in fashion. ERNT..
Went back to school after dropping out... thought maybe i'll figure it out.. ERNT....
Then I moved away from everyone in hopes to find something... ERNT...
Came back.. fell in love with skin care.. had it all planned out.... ERNT
Met the boy that later wrecked my life.. moved to CA for a life I thought was going to be the dream. .... ERNT..

Now i'm in DC.. working with a frown on my face every day. I have to say.. I am a bit more bi-polar these days. I honestly have no idea what I am suppose to be doing in life. I get so down, when I'm around all these smart people doing what they love, or doing something interesting with their lives.. when all I can say for myself is.... " oh ya know.. i'm doing .... cuz it pays the bills and it's great health insurance." LAME and FAIL.

I want to be proud of myself.. and I want to do something that I can say makes me happy!! Something that you can see the light in my eyes and the happiness on my face. BUT WHAT IS IT??

I know you have to make sacrifices for your lifes dream.. but in this day and age, how in the world are you suppose to do that? I'm too lazy. I need to find the thrill again to make me do it I use to have it, but it's gone now. I have no drive in life, and I need it back.

Someday's you just want to tell the world... Please stop for a minute so I can catch up! I need to start now.. somehow and somewhere..

Please feel free to join me in this adventure. :)

Where my willpower has gone to...

Geezus man... it's only 3:27 and I'm DYING to get out of the office!! I'm trying to wean off Facebook and not be a complete addict. ugghh.. I (temporarily) disabled my account the other day.. I was just tired of looking at it and being on it nonstop.. Yeah, its Thursday and I'm already back on being a stalker. FAIL.

Although, I can state that it is great for work purposes. The wedding I'm doing, the lady was all " are you on FB?" I replied.. " well, I just recently deleted it". I got a small pause and I'm 100% positive she might have given me a " WTF" look through the phone. *sigh* Anywho.. she wanted to see my "pics" of my work, and then I could see what her wedding party looked like.. and bla bla bla. I'm obviously making excuses to justify my addiction of looking at peoples pictures, and judging them through the web.

And you know its only used to look at peoples ex's and flings and " am i cuter than them" situations. " She's on FB.. go look, I'll hold". Can't tell you how many times, I've gotten one of those phone calls ...(or made the phone call).

But none the less.. public display of personal lives never ceases to amaze or intrigue. It's the first thing you do in the morning ( before coffee), and the last thing you do at night( before gossiping with your sig other in bed about what you just read). I give it about 2 more years before people are worn out and FB become the long forgotten Tom. ( remember he was on myspace).

Crap TV

I can't wait for the new fall lineup to start. I'm starting to go crazy watching crap TV. I watched Kourtney and Khloe take Miami last night for like 2 hours. Sometimes I want to b*tch slap a facial expression on Kourtney's face. And someone please introduce Khloe to a good face wash. Geesh. But I do love my Kardashian's.

I then switched it over to The Real Housewives of NJ. I love a good train wreck and a filthy mother. Can we just talk about how WHORE-ibble Danielle is. Then of course, I got hooked into HGTV. I need to make a drinking game out of that show. The women use the words " love", or " pretty" or "adore" way too much to NOT make a drinking game.

Other than that, I had nothing to watch. If you can find me some sort of show that is not too realistically phony, than I'll watch it. I mean.. The Hills are over, so what's a girl to do? I know what you're thinking.. Pick up a book!. I wish I read more than I do. I just can't focus on the books. I need to see an actor or an actress in my head to make it feel more realistic.

Did I mention I ate buffalo wings and cheese fries with a beer last night. Don't' judge.

Makeup make me happy!

I just landed my second wedding gig! Super excited! I am sharing however with a fellow makeup artist. I don't think I can do 7 people in less than 2 hours. whewww. Looking forward to it!! Aug 14th is booked! :)

Intervention for Dogs

I LOVE the show Intervention. I have to admit, watching it, sometimes makes me feel better about myself. But seriously, who doesn't love a train wreck? And of course we want them to get better... we need to see what they look like normal. Am I really that bad of a person for watching this and thinking... "O.M.G. Seriously! WHAT A HAWT MESS!!". Of course I call my friends during and say.. " wow.. she is a ru-tard" and we giggle. It's what most judgers do I think.

But here of late, I have been banned from watching it at my significant others house. Instead we watch Cesar Milan Dog Whisperer. I too love this show. But after a discussion on why I could not watch Intervention, I started watching Dog Whisperer, and realized.. IT'S THE SAME SHOW!

If you look at it, it really is.. The dog has a problem. The "parents" need help to fix it, so they call the pro Cesar. In Intervention, they call, Candy Finnigan, or whats his name for the help. Granted the dog is usually addicted to skate boards, or just being a horrible dog, but it still needs help.

Soo, Cesar steps in, talks to the "parents". This would be the " Pre-Intervention", and then brings the dog in, and is like.. " you need rehabilitation". Let's just state here that the dog AND the person of Intervention both attend " REHAB", thus creating the " happy ending" of healthy human and dog.

So really.. I'm just watching an intervention for dogs. ( but the dogs are always cuter). Soo..I think the ban has been lifted by my rebuttal. : )