When do dreams become realistic?

Everyone has them.. the dream. Not while sleeping.. the ones while living. I can honestly say.. I have no idea WTF I am doing with my life sometimes. I work, but i'm not happy working. I get so frustrated with the people that have everything figured out. I'm about to go into my 3rd decade of life, and I feel that I should have something a bit more mapped out for myself.

When I was 18 I went to college.. thought I was going to do something in fashion. ERNT..
Went back to school after dropping out... thought maybe i'll figure it out.. ERNT....
Then I moved away from everyone in hopes to find something... ERNT...
Came back.. fell in love with skin care.. had it all planned out.... ERNT
Met the boy that later wrecked my life.. moved to CA for a life I thought was going to be the dream. .... ERNT..

Now i'm in DC.. working with a frown on my face every day. I have to say.. I am a bit more bi-polar these days. I honestly have no idea what I am suppose to be doing in life. I get so down, when I'm around all these smart people doing what they love, or doing something interesting with their lives.. when all I can say for myself is.... " oh ya know.. i'm doing .... cuz it pays the bills and it's great health insurance." LAME and FAIL.

I want to be proud of myself.. and I want to do something that I can say makes me happy!! Something that you can see the light in my eyes and the happiness on my face. BUT WHAT IS IT??

I know you have to make sacrifices for your lifes dream.. but in this day and age, how in the world are you suppose to do that? I'm too lazy. I need to find the thrill again to make me do it I use to have it, but it's gone now. I have no drive in life, and I need it back.

Someday's you just want to tell the world... Please stop for a minute so I can catch up! I need to start now.. somehow and somewhere..

Please feel free to join me in this adventure. :)